Thursday, April 30, 2009

Growing Up To Fast

When you become a parent no one ever tells you that things will ever be easy. As my kids getting older I often sit down and pull out the baby books and remember the times when they just sat on my lap, asked me to sing to them, read them a book, or just hold them because they are just not feeling good. Now that my kids are growing up and turning to young adults its harder to do those things. Getting ready for sports, prom, graduation parties, cheerleading or just friends hang out for the day. It just don't seem to be enough hours in the day to get things done. And don't forget you need to have time to work to pay for it all and then there is your husband wondering when he can have time with his wife. I am waiting for that hand book that should be manditory when you make a big disicion about having a child or even getting married. But after 17 year of being a mommy my handbook hasn't arrived!!! I think It is time to give up the hope that it is coming. So I will stick to thething I know the best, leave my life in Gods hands and let him help me down the path that he put me on.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Advice needed

Bring two families together as anyone knows, problems are going to come up. As a parent that never had step children I feel that I don't have a connection like I have with my own. I look at them and treat them the same way I would mine but I don't have the respect like I should from them. I don't want to take their moms place but I would love to have that connection like I have with my own children. I am having problems with my step son (Devon) that I have never been through with any of my own or even my self. He has experienced with drugs and got mixed up with some wrong kids that got him in trouble with the law. He doesn't look at it like a major problem and I don't think he realizes how serious it is. I try to talk to him, some days I get through and others I feel like he in space wondering when I am going to stop talking. I know from talking to Roscoe (his dad) any close female in his life as walked away in some way or another so I think he feels I will do the same thing so he is afraid to get close. I dont know what to do to make him ungerstand that I will always be by his side through good and bad times. As for my step daughter (Nicole) I don't think she took the time to learn the things that she needed to make her life on her own easier. So when she was out in the real world she knew how to deal with the things that God would throw at her (cooking,sewing,cleaning,ect.). She was to busy grew up way to fast. She wants to be on her own so bad but when things get tough all she does is run. She never sticks around to see what will come of it. When I think I am close of having that connection that I would like to have it seems that another road opens up and problems start all over again. I know God brought me together with Roscoe for some reason because things seems to be go more smoothly with him in my life. We were both having alot of problems and we helped each other get through the toughest of times. I feel we are both happier than we have ever been. (I know I am). I thank God that he finally brought me to the part of my life that I have a husand that respects and love me unconditionally. I am now at a point that I need to ask for help before it starts to effect my marriage or my own children. If anyone has any advice or knows of any one that might have been through this same situation please help.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Almost Here

Well prom is almost here and everyone in this house is on stress mode. Patience and Devon is really excited and Megan and Austin is counting down the days until things go back to normal. Nicole moved out of her apt and back to Gallion and will be miss bunches. Its hard when one of your kids make a disicion about their life and you know that it is not a good one but what can you do but just sit back and let them make their own mistakes. Deovn is almost done catching up on things he left go and getting back on the road of making better choices. As for Rocky and I we are just glad that the kids are all healthy and getting along (for the most part). I will post pictures when so everyone can see the final page of our stress and why it was so worth it.
My very best to evryone.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Our Journey

Our journey started on September 13,2008 when my husband and I brought two families into one. We had dated for about 2 years and we couldn't wait any longer. It was hard at first alot of rebeling from our kids. Not because they didn't agree but because of the different parenting skills of him and I. You know when your set in your ways there is no changing you. As the months went by we have trouble with my step son (Devon) as most of you know he had got mixed up with the wrong kids he still has his day when he chooses to still so wrong but he is getting better over the months. My older daughter (Patience) is getting ready for prom that is just right around the corner. My son (Austin) just got back from Washington D.C. and really had a good time. My daughter (Megan) is getting ready to start cheerleading for McComb middle school. And my step daughter (Nicole) is out on her own realizing it was easlier being at home. As you can see our lives are really busy. I REALLY miss those baby years.lol. For the most of it I thank God everyday for my kids yes there days i could sell tehm on Ebay because they drive me crazy but when things calm down I would never let anyone take them or harm them.
I wish everyone a great day of love nad happiness.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Welcome

God always gives us adventures that will make us a better person. Come with on my new adventure of life with God as my leader.